Monday, September 9, 2013


Lost another pound!
But then sabotaged myself.
So hard to make healthy eating habit again.
However, I made it to yoga, took three long walks and I am finding a gym close to home.

Plus, starting a new eating plan soon.

This week is my anniversary. My husband and I are going away for two nights. I am going to try to be as healthy as possible.

The real deal starts Friday the 13th.
Whole30... has anyone tried it? Let me know how it was for you.

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Happy day

I am really happy. I made it through another night shift! Plus, I found someone to work the weekend night shifts so I don't have to be sleep deprived! It was hard to eat well yesterday being so tired. I did mostly OK.

Going to start planning my meals for the next few days and NO CHEATING ALLOWED!

The bed is going to feel so good this morning!

Weight lost so far- 0.8 lbs.

Monday, August 5, 2013


Wow. I have been away for a while.

I am hoping to get into a routine and really be back.

I am ashamed I have fallen off the wagon, but I am very motivated to return. This has been a difficult, sad summer and I am looking forward to fall. My brother and his wife lost a triplet at 1 day old. Then he was given a grave diagnosis. One of the triplets is doing well, Maggie. The other one has had a lot of challenges and struggles, but is a little fighter.

I am trying to hold down 3 jobs (quit one but they can't hire a replacement for months, so I have agreed to keep working). I have been stressed. My daughter just started college. My son starts school tomorrow. I start my new wellness plan tomorrow too.

Hope I can follow through this time.

Thursday, June 13, 2013

3 Weeks down, 3 to go...

I have 3 more weeks of restriction on exercise. Halfway through and I am feeling better so it is harder to continue taking it easy. I don't want it to take even longer though so I am following doctor's orders.

Emotionally I am doing much better as well. I found out that my supplements combined were providing me with > 4000% of the RDA of B vitamins, which was making me an insomniac. I didn't sleep more than 3 hours a night for almost a week straight! That was making me crazy on so many levels. I have stopped the supplements for now and I am feeling better.

I am planning on walking the local Butte to Butte Mayor's walk on the 4th of July. I often do the run, but since I will only be cleared for exercise a couple of days before, I am doing the walk. I am looking forward to getting back into the running slowly, plus the yoga (I really miss the yoga!) and boot camp.

I bought fitness journal which has places to chart many aspects of health and nutrition daily, hoping this will give me some accountability for things even though I can't exercise right now. It is helping me to get back into a daily habit and to start thinking about goals and the steps I need to take to reach them.

Only 1 more week until the official start of summer. YES!!!

Friday, June 7, 2013

Post Hysterectomy Blues

I had my hysterectomy 2 weeks ago and I am feeling really blue and depressed.
I don't want any more children, but I am mourning the "fertile" stage of my life something fierce and it has come as a surprise to me. I wasn't expecting this at all.

Has anyone else had this experience? The operation went well. I have no outside incisions and the pain has been minimal except for my bladder spasms. So uncool those are. I found (at my husband's suggestion) that beer works well to calm a spasmodic bladder. Thank you honey for encouraging me to drink.

Needless to say, all efforts are on healing, not weight loss and fitness right now. I am still weighing myself daily to hold myself accountable and make sure I don't gain back too many of the hard fought off pounds.

I might try a little meditation to dispel some of the funk. The weather has been gorgeous and I hardly ever have depression when the sun is shining, skies are blue and temperatures are in the 70-80 range. But then, I have never had a hysterectomy either.

I am trying to focus on the positive, which there is plenty. I have great insurance so the surgery hardly cost me anything. I had plenty of PTO banked so there is no rush to get back to work. I will not have to spend any more nights hemorrhaging in the ICU receiving blood transfusions, as I did in early May. I have two beautiful children and one gorgeous stepdaughter. Plus, I can buy sheets that will remain blood free for longer than a few weeks! I won't have to have extra clothes at work for when the blood pours out of me in a terrible rush, soaking through all protection, clothing, furniture, etc.

Smile. Breathe. Laugh. Enjoy.

Monday, April 29, 2013

Post-Half-Marathon weight gain

Yesterday was great. I met all three of my mini-marathon goals: finish, keep a steady pace the whole time (just over 11 min/mile) and finish under 2 1/2 hours (time 2 hrs 25 minutes). The weather was perfect- cool, cloudy, dry. The course was full of well-wishers and people out having a good time with their race.

Last night I was sore, but not overly. Then this morning rolls around and I have 3 extra pounds on the scale. YUCK. It really makes for a rotten Monday. I suppose there might be some truth to the swelling muscles, water retention after an intense workout, but 3 lbs!!! I have been struggling watching the weight slowly decline 0.2lbs at a time and to instantly gain back the last 3 weeks worth of sweat and tears and toil is so, so discouraging.

Why do I care? It is just a number, right? But it isn't. It makes a difference. I am disappointed. It makes it hard not to binge on chocolate and beer. It makes it hard to pick myself up off the couch and go sweat it out in hot yoga tonight.

But I am getting up (in two minutes). I am putting on the revealing yoga clothes that make me cringe a little. I am driving to the studio. I am doing what it takes for 60 minutes. Then I am coming home and drinking lots of water. Lots and lots of water. And going to bed hoping some of this weight is flushed out by the morning. And if it isn't, I am hoping I have the willpower to do the same thing tomorrow.

Friday, April 26, 2013

biking fun

I had such an amazing time biking around town today. It is so amazing when the weather changes and the sun is warm again. I feel so happy.

I have been having burritos made with butternut squash, laughing cow cheese, mushrooms, onion, peppers and egg whites and they are so yummy! So So Yummy.

Sometimes life is easy. Today is one of those days. All is right.